No Longer a Blank Amtgard Slate

This is one I feel a little bad blogging about. I don't want people to get the wrong impression about me. First some background.... In Amtgard they have recognition/awards that they give to people for all sorts of things: service, fighting ability, arts & sciences, etc. These awards work in a tiered-progression concept. They have have categories that these things are broken down into and each award you receive in a category is supposed to be a little harder to earn than the last one. There are no set rules/standards for receiving awards, it's just all at the discretion of the leadership. This is where the problem lies with me. Again, I don't want people thinking that I'm glory seeking or that I think I'm some great whatever. I really don't. I have done a few things worthy of recognition, however, and it's tough to see people receive awards and have your own contribution overlooked. I tried not to let it get to me but I am human after all. There was an even last weekend (which I couldn't attend) and they had court there as they do at almost all events. At this court I was finally awarded a few things. Previous to this my records page had been a big blank slate. I had received nothing. So, this was a notable thing for me. I received my first two awards for service, first two awards for jewelry making, and first award for fighting skill. I found out later that one of my friends had to resort to calling up the current leader and complaining on my behalf in order for me to get most of those awards. It kind of bugs me that that is what had to happen. I want to receive awards because my contribution is recognized, not because someone complained. I have been told that that is the way it has to happen, but I still prefer the route of quiet service. I don't like tooting my own horn. And I feel bad when others toot it on my behalf. Perhaps I'm being to humble. It will require some thought I guess....