I haven't made any posts for a while. I don't know why. I just haven't felt like blogging. I think it's been a mix of a lot of laziness and a lot of depression. My laziness/procrastination is well known and not worth explaining. I've been really depressed for the last few months, however. I haven't felt excited about doing anything and I've been looking for excuses to not do things I normally have no problem doing or even enjoy doing. I'm guessing my depression has to do with my job.
At the end of January I'm going to be out of a job. It's through no fault of my own (except that I moved to Denver) and, if they had their way, my bosses would both like to keep me on. Everybody is happy with my work and happy with the situation but my contract is still ending in a month. It's all due to understandable-but-frustrating business decisions. There are a few if-onlys thrown in for good measure, too. If only the IT management had been okay with me working from Denver as a regular employee instead of as a contractor this wouldn't be coming up. They don't want me to go. If only the IT management would realize that my main boss' team is extremely short-handed and they need more people. If only firm management wasn't so tight on money for staff then they wouldn't mind paying for me as a contractor. Ah well. There is very little I can do about it. A part of me hopes that some magic will happen and that it will all work itself out. I know there's not much of a chance for that, though. It just makes me sad and depressed....
At the end of January I'm going to be out of a job. It's through no fault of my own (except that I moved to Denver) and, if they had their way, my bosses would both like to keep me on. Everybody is happy with my work and happy with the situation but my contract is still ending in a month. It's all due to understandable-but-frustrating business decisions. There are a few if-onlys thrown in for good measure, too. If only the IT management had been okay with me working from Denver as a regular employee instead of as a contractor this wouldn't be coming up. They don't want me to go. If only the IT management would realize that my main boss' team is extremely short-handed and they need more people. If only firm management wasn't so tight on money for staff then they wouldn't mind paying for me as a contractor. Ah well. There is very little I can do about it. A part of me hopes that some magic will happen and that it will all work itself out. I know there's not much of a chance for that, though. It just makes me sad and depressed....
2 comments:
Ouch! With Karen being sick the last couple of weeks, that little bit of information didn't get passed along. So what are you going to do? I'm going to fast for you tomorrow.
I appreciate your support. I'm going to start looking for a new job. It's the only thing I can do. I'll make certain Karen keeps you posted if I find a new job.
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